The past weeks have been crazy as I’ve tried to juggle so many things all at the same time — FYP, outsight, side projects, friends, personal development and the future. I wish life was less hectic and more sequential, but as a friend puts it in his blog in Helvetica Neue, “That’s how life is, everything at once.”

One thing that has definitely happened is I do more and I think less. In the name of efficiency (yes, it’s that dirty word), I find myself jumping straight into doing even before I’ve carefully thought out things. What suffers then is my judgement and my ability to explore. I start finding my work repetitive and my satisfaction (maybe, relief) is derived from getting it done rather than getting it done well. And it is only in recent weeks, in light of some events that have made me reflect on what I have been doing.

More importantly, being able to step back now do I see how my decisions reflect the values I seem to have as a person and I’m going through a period of finding out who I am as a person and re-evaluating my values. It is this thinking, doing, reflecting that I think is what Bruce Mau refers to as process in his Incomplete Manifesto and it is something I’m seeking to be aware of in everything I do.

This is one reason why this blog exists and why I have that notebook with me. Just by seeing how little I’ve been writing and doodling, it shows I’ve hardly been thinking. I’m going to be more conscientious about these things again.